Do you guys think you have covid-19 everyday like I do? Seriously, I wake up in the morning thinking, This sore throat is different than the one I had yesterday — the one caused by my seasonal allergies, which are always wicked bad this time of year. This sore throat is IT.

Besides these bouts of hypochondriac panic, I sometimes get this feeling that everyone else is “better at quarantining” than I am. It seems like every time I go on Facebook or Instagram, someone’s showing me a beautiful sunset or mountaintop that they just hiked to, or they’re on Day 18 of a meditation streak, or their kids are making actual strides with their distance learning, leading bible studies, and even having legit fun family game nights. This has not been my reality. We’ve had lots of anguish about how serious this really is, what activities are still okay (especially with two teenagers), and how will it ever end? We sleep in. I attempted an online yoga class and gave up when I hit the ceiling during tadasana. As for the distance learning, I saw an April Fool’s meme that said the governor was going to make all the kids repeat their grade in school, and my first thought was, Well that sounds about right. 

I also have been struggling with ethical issues that make my head spin. Is it good or bad to order takeout food? (I.e. I’m helping a restaurant stay in business while possibly exposing its workers to the virus; what’s the right thing to do?) Is it okay to order things online? (Same dilemma, except clearly Amazon doesn’t need my money.) What about volunteering? I want to help healthcare workers and people who don’t have food, but I don’t want to make myself part of the problem by going out. Ugh, my brain hurts.

So far, we are healthy. I remind myself everyday to be thankful for that. And for my family and my home. The news is terrifying, so I pray for the people who are sick or homeless, and try not to complain too much about being bored. I am looking forward to Easter and all that it represents, even though we won’t be going to church or spending time with our relatives.

Like most everybody, I’m still cooking. Cooking provides a sense of normalcy, it’s comforting, and it’s one thing I can control. Here’s what we made during week 2 of sheltering in place.

Day 8 – On one of my last shopping trips, the store had buy-one-get-one free pork shoulder, which seemed like a good thing to have in the freezer during quarantine. I thawed one out and made carnitas in the slow cooker today. The recipe is super easy and pretty foolproof. I served the carnitas with the last of our corn tortillas and some roasted peppers and onions.

Slow Cooker Pork Carnitas
Ingredients
1 boneless pork roast (mine was about 3 lbs.)
1/2 onion, diced
1-2 garlic cloves, minced
1 tbs. salt
1 tsp. cumin
1 tsp. chili powder
1 tsp. oregano
1/2 tsp. cayenne pepper
1 tbs. hot sauce
Juice of 1 orange (or 2 cuties)
Juice of 2 limes
1/2 cup salsa
1/2 cup water (or beer if you can spare one)